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“There’s a lyric in the middle of the song that says, ‘I want to decide between survival and bliss.’ Basically I’m talking about the difference between really being alive and really embracing the reason why I’m here on this earth versus my just being asleep and sleep walking and accepting the status quo and accepting somewhat of a suffering mentality to being here. It really is my responsibility to distinguish the difference between the two and choose which one I want.
It’s so easy for me to want to not take responsibility for my life and relinquish it and look outside of myself for the answers that I know very well are within me. It’s so scary to be silent and it’s so scary to go within, until I do it. And once I’m doing it, I just wonder why I wasn’t doing this all the time. So that decision to be fully alive is one that is preceded by some pretty intense decisions and some choices and responsibility-taking that at times can be very intimidating, again, before I do it.” —Alanis Morissette
Lyrics:
You'll rescue me. Right?
In the exact same way they never did.
I'll be happy. Right?
When your healing powers kick in.
You'll complete me. Right?
Then my life can finally begin.
I'll be worthy. Right?
Only when you realize the gem I am.
But this won't work now the way it once did.
And I won't keep it up even though I would love to.
Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am,
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim.
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenceless.
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends.
This ring will help me yet as will you, knight in shining armour.
This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water.
But this won't work as well as the way it once did
'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss.
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am,
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim.
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid.
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend.
I've spent so long firmly looking outside me.
I've spent so much time living in survival mode.
This won't work now the way it once did
'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss.
And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am,
But I know I won't keep on playing the victim.
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was defenseless.
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends.
These precious illusions in my head did not let me down
When I was a kid.
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend
